Life oh my

So it is said the only thing you know for sure in life is that it will change. Oh man has my life changed.

So where to start. Let’s start at the very beginning, it’s a very good place to start. (She says humming The Sounds of Music.)

So on August 1st 2017 we moved into a classic class c RV from 1977. We originally planned to remodel it before moving into it. But after many trips to the shop and weighting for it back, we had no time. Our lease we up and we had to move out. So we have been remodeling and living in it. Not an easy thing to do and I do not recommend it.

On August 17 2017 my boyfriend, Frank, surprised me on one of our trips to a locate campground we fall in love with. He asked me to marry him. I said “YES”. He is the most wonderful man. I have known him for many many years.  WE are planning to get married at that campground on November 17, 2018.

So before I get ahead of myself I will continue. So Florida was going to get hit by a bad hurricane around the beginning of September 2017 so we hit the road for our first trip out of state. We headed to Alabama. We ended up not far from Montgomery at a campground that was a fort during the french and Indian war. We knew after this trip that we had to hit the road soon, the road was calling.

On around mid March 2018 we plugged the trigger and hit the road to west Texas for a job as a gate guard. It did not work out. So we started gate guard with a different company in South Texas. We are still here and being great.

There were many other things along the way I missed but we’ll leave that ffor another post.


I have a secret

So I have been putting this off as I have been dealing with this myself.

Oh where to start. I guess I will cover the basics of this and do other post later about the rest.

Back this past August my life changed forever.

The best way to put this so some people understand is thinking of it like weather.

One day the sky opened up like it does after a bad storm or in my case a hurricane. What I mean by that is one day I realized what was right before me and woke up. I realized that I was in an emotional and verbally abusive relationship. I had been making excuses for years for what I thought was normal in my life and it was abuse.

It was later that day I thought about all this love I feel in my heart and how I could love someone that was like this to me. I realized I didn’t, yes I took care of him and cared for his health, but the love I once felt was gone. I am unsure how long it has been this way. Maybe as I work with therapy I will know that answer.

So I thought about my life and what was going on in my life. I took about 3-5 days to focus on myself mentally and think. All this time my husband had no idea how I felt. I thought about the people in my life and what they mean to me and my relationships with them.

It was at this time, I thought about this gentle, kind man in my life our friend. I realized that there maybe something there other then friendship, so on a car ride with him to pick up something I talked to him. I told him I care about him and I think I have feelings for him. He said the same. That was August 10th.

I thought about how I was going to tell my husband so after a day I just seat him down and said that this is not working and I am not in love with him.

This started the worst hell I have ever been in. For 3 days my life sucked as we tried to figure out what we were going to do. The abuse went to a whole new level, which ended at 3 AM on August 14th with a call to 911. My husband was violently trying to kill myself and our friend.


After so much court stuff and a divorce. I am happy to say I am on the road to healing. Therapy every 2 weeks and lots of one day at a time. I am starting to know what our soldiers go thought when coming home as I now have PTSD.

It has been 6 months since my life changed forever. Yes it was hell, but to get to sunshine you sometimes have to make it thru a lot of storms.

I am happier then I have ever been. I finally feel LOVED. I am not sure the last time I felt this loved.

So a thought to think about and something that keeps me going. “Something will grow from all you are going through. And it will be YOU.” – unknown.


Ok ok I am a bad blogger.

yeah I know I said I was going to blog more and that did not happen. I have pictures of projects I did and mean to post. I am hoping to get back on schedule with my daily living soon. I will be scheduling time for myself to blog also. I had a weekend conference followed shortly after by working at a camp for 2 weeks. Maybe I will post again tomorrow. No promise but I hope I will have something different for you soon. 



Once again I am sorry for not posting. I am not trying to make excuses but life has been busy. I am going to try and make a few post and schedule them so this does not keep happening. If you noticed I have taken the plunge and made this blog a .com maybe this will make me more accountable.

Well it is late so off to bed.



Stressed does not even bring to describe my life right now. I have been trying to get my house clean and organized… Not working out great. I have been taking care of my mother since last November and have been doing a lot for her. Every time we get a few steps ahead and are starting to make progress she goes back in the hospital and we start all over again. I am not complaining I don’t mind taking care of her, even if it can be a thankless job a lot of times. It is just stressful to have a life and balance all the demands of taking care of her and my family at the same time.

I wish sometimes I could get on a plane and go some where for a few days.

I don’t normally post rants here but I had no were else to go.

Thanks for listening.



I am going to be making a few changes to this site. I will this being sharing things from my life. I am going to try harder to post more often (at least once a week). I also started an Etsy shop, so I will be adding that to the site and connecting the two. Please bear with me during the changes.



Sorry I have been MIA

I am so sorry I was missing. A lot has been going on.

Kenn was hospitalized for 16 days in October and had major surgery. He is doing a lot better now. I am proud of him he quit smoking during his hospitalization. It has been 4 months now. He is trying to focus more on his health.
My mom moved in with us in November. It has been along process getting things change from PA to FL for her. She has a good bit of medical problems so that makes things hard. I may or may not talk about her on here, I am not sure.
Kenn and I joined a gym and have been trying to workout 3 times a week. Unfortunately that is on hold cause I sprained my ankle on the 17th. Which was our 5 year wedding anniversary. 😦
I am thinking of starting to post recipes I create or one I found and tried.
I have pictures of my nail designs from when I was MIA, I will be posting them on Seriously Polished.
Thanks for sticking by me.