Everyday life

A bit of a break thru

I know a another post so soon may come as a shock to some because in the past I was not the greatest at remembering to post. Actually I am surprised that I am posting again so soon, as I have been forgetting tons of things recently.  I have read that it has to do with the PTSD. In a way I find blogging therapeutic.

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As I seat here and think of what has happened in my life. I am left worrying where am I going? What does the future hold for me?

I have feelings of quitting everything in my life and starting over. Getting rid of all the things that was once my life and starting a new life, one that I want and not one that I feel was picked for me.

Of course if I was to do such a thing I would never leave my babies, aka the dogs & cats, they are a part of me after all. I just don’t know where I am headed. Yes it scares me and in a small way begins me hope.

I think that sometimes I should look back at all the strength I had and draw from that, and my what doesn’t kill you make you stronger personally. But the hurt little girl in me is scared to get hurt again. I am not even sure what I am scared of hurting me. I know that my boyfriend supports me and loves me. He would never do to me what was once done to me. Maybe it is the feeling of being alone being on my own and feeling like I have nothing and no one.

Truth be told I don’t think I ever really had a life to start with. I graduated high school and started business school the fall after that where I meet my now ex-husband. It was him and I from then on. I think in the past few years I have realized there was no ME in my life and at the same time started to see how I was being treated by my then husband.

So it short, even though it seems scary. I guess it is time to pull up my big girl panties and make the hard decisions.  I guess what doesn’t kill me makes me stronger.

 

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Everyday life

Oh life

So things have gotten away from me. I am going to try and set a goal to blog more.

An update on my life. My car died (engine went in it). I have a great friend that helps me get around when I need to. Plus we don’t live far from a bus stop if we need to go somewhere.

I have been working on Auxiliary things like crazy. I think that big things are in the future for me in the next few years.

The puppies and my husband are doing great. We’re trying to stay warm in the sunshine state. El nino has brought a lot of cold temperatures to Florida.  I mean 40 degrees some mornings. I guess hoodie weather is here.

I hope everyone had a Merry Christmas and I hope the New Year brings everyone something new.

Tell next time. ( I hope next week.)

Everyday life

No zombies did not eat my brain.

I know it seems like the only post I put up any more are updates cause I can never find time to blog. I am truly sorry for not posting more often. Life has been so busy.

Back around October , I think, the American Legion Auxiliary unit I belong to had a big change. The president stepped down, which normally is not a bad deal for some people. But I was the Vice President. I had only been a member since Jan 2014. I thought I would have more time to find out what they were all about and the different things they do. Ah No. I have had to learn so much my brain hurts sometimes. But I am glad to say that our unit is growing more then they have in a long time and they seems very excited for future changes and events.

We also moved in November. I am so thankful for my American Legion family as i did not have to rent a trunk, a handful of guys got together and helped us move the big things. Thank god.

Then came December. The holidays are not as crazy for us as for most people cause we do not have children, but we still have a lot of fun things going on. A few Christmas parties, and our annual day at Disney to see the Osborne Spectacular of Lights.  (Sorry the picture quality sucks)

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Christmas 2014 Disney World
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Kenn waiting on the Christmas parade.

I don’t even think I breathed in January. Between doctor appointments, meetings, and American Legion Auxiliary events, the month just breezed past me. I remember thinking I was going to try and get my life back in order that month. Ha Ha. Like that ever really happens.

Maybe the rest of February and March will go a little slower and I can post more and do things around the house to post here,

For those that love looking at pictures of the puppies here are a few.

Thanks for reading.

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Freddy after a spa day
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Dingo taking over a bed
Everyday life

Adventures in weed trimming

Nothing is ever as easy as it seems. I have been needing to clean up some weeds around my house. So I decided today was the day to do this. Exactly I started it today and will have to finish a different day, but more on way in a second.

First here is the before pictures:

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So I re spooled the weed trimmer and started working. The top right picture is as far as I got before the weed trimmer broke. So the great start for a new weed trimmer started. First I looked for a replacement, that did not work. The only way to get one was to order it from Black & Decker site. I love this weed trimmer but it is about 15 years old, so time for a new one. I ended up going to Lowe’s and get a Black & Decker ST 4500.

Here is the beautiful thing. It has about twice the power as I am use to. But it works GREAT.

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So after about a few hours of actually being able to use the weed trimmer here is the after.

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Hopefully I have time to get some of the front done tomorrow. Tell later have a great day.

 

 

Disney, Everyday life, Pets

BIG NEWS

I am going to be making some changes soon and will be switching to http://www.jamiepaws.com . I am in the middle of designing the new site and will let you know as soon as it is launched. I have been working on a lot several different projects and have many things in the works. I have launched a Personal Shopper site recently. http://www.mouseketeerwdwpersonalshopper.com Please fell free to look at it and tell me what you think. I am redesigning the layout of that site too. So the current one is just temporary.

As far as the puppies are doing everyone is good. Freddy, the shit-tzu, has differently found his bark and is letting me know it. He also discovered yesterday that he LOVES balloons. I was not able to get a picture of him playing with it. As son as I get a picture or video I will upload it.

I have a very busy month ahead of me so I hope I can blog and upload things cause I really enjoy doing so. I have an American Legion Conference in the middle of the month for about 4 days. Then at hte end of the month I have family coming to visit and will be going to Disney at the end of the month till July 4th. So that will definitely be pictures from that.